Somthing tells me this isn't going to be easy


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Jesse this

To the boys who I loved before:

To the boy whose name
Was written on my first valentine
Who was the definition
of unconventional schoolyard love
Whose last name lived in the side of my margins
and I chased around the monkey bars at recess

To the boy who never loved me back
Told me I wasn’t good enough
Made me feel like I wasn’t worthy of his love
The one who I knew like the the back of my hand
While he didn’t give me the time of day

To the boy my parents warned me about
The one who’s name they’d respond automatically with:
“He’s no good.”
The same one that would send sparks through my veins
And the same spark that would ignite a fire just to go down in flames

To the boy who was just like me
So he knew exactly what would make me tick
The frustrating, irrational person
The one whose name I’d mutter with a curse word during the day
And the same name I’d think about before I went to bed at night

To the boy who’s heart I broke
And still have yet to apologize
The one’s who’s arms wrapped around me when I deserved it
But now hangs his head low when he sees me on the street
And can’t stand to even look me in the eye

To my best friend
Who still doesn’t know he’d be on this list
The one who knew me more than I knew myself
The one who I’d smile and say “I’m happy for you!”
Or “you two are perfect together.”
While it would slowly break my heart

To the boy I love now
And if it wasn’t for my mistakes
Or my time wasted with the wrong people
If it wasn’t for all
of the boys that I have loved
I would have never been lead to you.”

my motivation to be happy. (via insignificantttt)

Eat better. Run more. Squat more. Sleep earlier. Wake up earlier. Make a good breakfast. Drink water. Eat fruits. Read books. Adventure. Talk less. Listen more. Feel deeper. Love better. Open your eyes. Experience life. Be happy.
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